Sometimes on the way to a dream you get lost and find a better one.

So while attempting to motivate myself to go do something productive I started listening to a song and the lyrics really struck me.

Now I find it odd when people compare song lyrics to their lives and say things like "o this song explains my life exactly".  I just see that as huge assumption that a song could really describe your situation.  However at the same time I know that one way we connect and feel  is through music.  It is an outlet that allows us to escape the world for a few minutes.  Well now I find myself being the odd one after listening to part of this song.  Here is the  lyrics:

"....Every part of my heart I'm giving out....Every song on my lips I'm singing out...Any fear in my soul I"m letting it go...."

I find that lately I feel as if my life has no direction and that I am in this stagnant place and just watching the world move while I simply stare.  I know that everyone goes through this especially after such a huge life change.  As most people know I graduate college this past December and before that all I knew was school.  It was what I had done since I was 6 and I never stopped until this December.  However this person that I have been feeling like lately is NOT me.  I pride myself on my positivity and optimism towards towards the world.  Just because I'm not doing anything right now doesn't mean that my life is in a stand still.  I made a huge decision this past week that deals with my future.  I decided to go to graduate school for counseling (if you want more info on that whole decision feel free to read my previous blog).  I have fears that I won't be good at grad school and that I will continue to be in this stand still. 

Now I know that I shouldn't be thinking such thoughts but its hard since I am no longer becoming what I thought I would be.  I guess I need to accept that there is another path for me, a path that I am sure is going to be full of twists and turns and ups and downs but I am ready to take this risk.  As the lyrics of the song said I am letting all this fear in my soul go and ready to continue down this new path.  I am excited to know where its going to take me and the people I'm going to meet and the memories I'm going to make.

To live a life that I love is all that I strive for.  It's all I have ever wanted and am ready to start this new life =).....can June please be here already?!?