prayers.

Life is a beautiful thing.  We are born, we take our first breath, and we open our eyes to a unforgettable journey.  We take our first steps into loving hands, we say our first words, and we learn what unconditional love means.  During this journey there are people that show this unconditional love.  These people are the ones who help raise us, teach us, and show us what it means to be a good person.  

In my life I have been blessed with many people who have both showed and taught me the above mentioned things.  There induviuals have forever touched my life and will always be in my heart.

I found out yesterday that my grandmother had a stroke.  She is very lethargic,  unresponsive, hooked up to many machines, and not herself. It breaks my heart to think that this sort of thing could happen to such a wonderful person.  I know that these things can happen to anyone.  I know that this is god's plan and he will do what is best for her.  My dad is headed out to see her in a day or two (this is his mother).  He told me that they are doing many tests on her tomorrow which include a swallowing test, continuing to check her mobility, and then do a memory test.  They should have a better understanding of where she is and where she may go to if she is to get better.  If for some reason the doctors determine that there is not much hope for recovery and she has to be left on machines then her living will then take affect.........

Please pray for my grandmother.  Whether it be for her recovery or for her to rest peacefully....prayers would be very much appreciated.

Here's to living, being blessed with wonderful people, and the power of god.

-s.

ungrateful gratefulness

Ever have one of those weeks where each day seem's to get progressively worse....yah. that was my week last week.  It started out with catching a terrible cold.  Not being able to breath.  Having to carry my own box of tissues like a crazy since the University does not provide tissues in the classroom...then having to write a needs assessment and lit review for a class but having no motivation or energy to do it because I had used all my energy blowing my nose a million times...then waking up the next day to find a zit on my eyelid....when were zit's allowed in that region of my face!!!! Then the cold got worse.... woke up the next day with 4 canker sore's (talk about painful!)....and then I still had to go to school, internship, and work the entire week...then went to visit my parents but ended up getting no rest because I had to help them move...to come home on Monday and find out through an email that I had another part of my proposal and still had no energy to do it........and now it's Tuesday of the following week.

As I sit here and reread this post I notice how much time I just spent ranting and raving about how bad things are instead of focusing on the positive's of this past week.  Even though I had a cold at least I am alive, had money for cold med's, and a warm bed.  Even though I had a zit on my eyelid I did have glasses to help cover the monstrosity.  Even though I had to participate in all my usual activities at least I got to do something I love...and even though I had to help my parents move at least I got to see my parents.

Here's to colds, canker-sores, zits, and no rest, taking the time to vent, and realizing how lucky I am to have colds, canker-sores, zits. and no rest.

-s.

The numbers are dropping...my pant's are no longer popping.

It has been 3 weeks since I started Weight Watchers.  I have had my good days and my bad days; but for the most part good.  They seriously make it SO easy to stay on track and to stay motivated.  I enjoy that I can eat as many fruits and veggies as I want (luckily I LOVE both of these food groups.  I have lost weight, and it has mostly been because of a diet change.  I wish that I could say I kept up with my goal of working out more often but I have been so busy.  Monday-Thursday I am either at school, work, or internship.  I am lucky if I get home by 7pm most days.  At that point I am hungry, exhausted, and then still have to do homework or notes or plan for future session....the list of things goes on and on.  Still, the way I am trying to look at it is that even though I did not work out, I did go down in weight.  

So without further ado......I have lost 6.4lbs!!! 

 Not a big number, but not a small number either.  I am happy with this because it means I am loosing weight at a healthy pace, which then means I should be able to keep if off.  I hope to continue forward and continue to loose the weight and gain the sanctification knowing I did it in a healthy, happy way.

Here's too eating lots of fruits and veggies, still trying to find the motivation, and having pants that don't feel like sausage casings.

-s.